Week 3 - Day 2

I definitely feel more cheerful this morning!

Breakfast: mullerlight, banana, apple
Snack: Square of chocolate (3), HExB peanut bar - eating them together = fake Snickers, omg.

Lunch: rice with veg, pork and gammon, beet root, carrots. 2 pink and whites (3) and a small mullerlight. 

Dinner: homemade KFC chicken leg, salad and coleslaw. 

Today's syns = 6

Week 3 - Day 1

After an incredible weekend away partying in the 17th century, I was very worried about slimming world this week. My 'partying' didn't stop til Monday morning. I not only ate the banquet food but a good number of the biscuits I'd made, some pink and whites when I got home... So I was completely amazed when the scales said -2lb. I'm thrilled because that puts me back to my 3stone loss, back to where I was before I had my rough week and gained. That means I can start again afresh and carry on moving forwards.

Yesterday I went wedding dress window shopping with my mum, tried lots of things on and discovered that the styles I thought I like were not necessarily the ones I actually liked when I put them on. Being in the size 16 dresses was a revelation. I still want to buy a 14 or even a 12 one day, and when we go purchase the dress in September I hope that's what we'll do - but the difference already sometimes still takes me by surprise. I wish I could share pictures of the things I tried but alas, the boy might see!

Breakfast - banana, apple, HexB hifi bar

Snack - mugshot

Lunch - potato, beans and salad
Dinner - slow cooked gammon, big big salad, chips (1.5), salad cream (2.5), jelly (1.5)

Today's syns then total 5.5!

Week 2 - Day 3

Breakfast (at 5.45am, because I'm one of those really stupid freelancers who takes on too much at once and then has to become sleep deprived to meet deadlines, ugh): mullerlight, banana, raspberries, HExB cereal.

Snack (9am): syn free rice pudding, apple.
Lunch: HExA cheese, ham and onion omelette with salad.
Dinner: chicken breast wrapped in bacon with cauliflower, broccoli, roast onion, carrots and potatoes. Strawberries and vanilla yoghurt.

I'm going to add 5 syns to today because I've been baking and inevitably licked my fingers etc. 

Week 2 - Day 2

So, back to logging the things that fall into my face and hoping that somehow, it'll add up to weight loss next Wednesday.

Breakfast: HExB cereal, yoghurt (0.5)
Lunch: egg and chips (3), pink and white (1.5), apple.
Dinner: lasagne and salad (spinach, cucumber, beetroot)
Rice pudding!

Week in Review

Well, today is a new day!

At group it turned out I maintained this week. I'm disappointed but it makes sense. We'll start again today. I think I'm going to keep tracking diaries here though. 

Breakfast: apple, banana, HexB cereal, yogurt (0.5)

Lunch: savoury rice (2), broccoli, pepper, mackeral. Options (1.5)

Dinner: slimming world lasagne full of veg, spinach salad (cucumber, beet root)

I'm going on an amazing weekend away to a re-enactment 17th century banquet, so I guess I'm saving my syns for the Saturday night feast. That's quite daunting - I've seen the menu and it looks amazing but not at all SW friendly! I'm sort of thinking that if I stick to <5 syns a day every other day, that'll give me 75 to play with on Saturday night. And if I try and be as sensible as possible with my choices (ie pick the trout, not the 'buttered rice' etc) then fingers crossed, it'll still be alright. Only one way to find out!

This Week - Day 7

Breakfast: yoghurt (0.5), banana, HExB cereal
Lunch: beans, egg, spinach, ham, nibble (3)
Dinner: sausage egg and chips with salad
Snack: oats (12)

This Week - Day 6

I want this week to be over so I can just start afresh. 

HexB cereal, banana, yogurt 0.5

Half mars bar 5.5

Spinach pasta salad with cucumber and beet root and BBQ pork 

Bangers and mash with salad and onion gravy. 

Square of chocolate (3) and apple cinnamon rice pudding. 

9 syns. 

This Week - Day 5

I'm feeling super sorry for myself over last night's indulgences. The thing is, I don't even feel like I indulged to excess, but I look at the syns and I know I'm not going to get what I want on Wednesday and it's just... disappointing. To know that I have to be so strictly toeing the line in order to get to where I want to be, that any kind of deviation from the plan will be problematic.

I keep thinking 'it's okay, today plus monday and tuesday we can be back on it properly and that should make a difference by wednesday and weighing in' but somehow I don't think it'll be enough.

To get to my target by August, I need to consistently lose 2lb a week. The idea is that I'll be at my target in August then able to go wedding dress shopping in September, when I'm at a 'stable' weight and able to work at maintaining that through to December. I can't leave it too late to go wedding dress shopping, I don't know how long it will take to find one I like and I'll be ordering it online, it needs time to arrive and for any potential alterations. I need time for that. The latest I'd want to be ordering the dress is early October, so there's plenty of time for any issues to be resolved. But my target is set at a fairly arbitrary place, I've no idea what I'll look like at that weight - nor do I know what dress size I'll be at that weight, or what shape - so I've no clue whether I'll be happy there or if I'm going to want to keep slimming down to the size 6 of my other successful group members (one lady has lost 10 stone and is now the skinniest minnie I have ever seen, from a 24 (I think) to a 6) and I'm worried that even then, I won't be happy with how I look. What if I'm never happy with myself. That's so scary. Plus I read this amazing article yesterday from a woman who was formerly 300lb and had more than halved her bodyweight, about all the things she missed about being fat. What if I lose weight and still feel awkward, still have no sex drive because I can't bear him seeing my body, still have anxiety attacks about cameras coming out? That means all this effort will be for little reward, even if my back doesn't hurt so much any more and I like being able to feel my hip bones and the bottom of my ribs.






Breakfast: hexb cereal, strawberries, yogurt (0.5)

Lunch: bulgar wheat, mackeral, peppers, spinach, apple

Snack: strawberries and fat free yogurt

Dinner: BBQ pulled pork with pasta, sweet corn, peppers, spinach. 

This Week - Day 4

Breakfast: HExB cereal, yoghurt (0.5 syns) and banana
Lunch: jacket potato with beans and salad
Snack: strawberries and a lolly 2.5 syns, mugshot. 
Dinner: Steak, potato and salad with sauce (3) (at a restaurant). Then cocktails (20?) and a slice of birthday cake (15)...

41?

This week is going to be horrible at weigh in, isn't it?!

This Week - Day 3

Busy busy busy.

Breakfast: HExB cereal, banana, raspberries, mango and passion fruit yogurt - 0.5 syns

Lunch: broccoli and savoury rice, apple, 4 tsp frosting (10 syns)

Dinner: chicken breast pizza with spinach and chips 1.5 syns, HexA cheese. 

12 syns.